Growing up I had this insane fear of admitting that I was a Leo. You know that stereotypical July-August baby who only talks about himself, won't admit failure, and who seems to just have too much confidence. I thought there must be some other character I could be in this game of Life. I didn't have to be the self-absorbed lion, did I?
As I've come into my mid-twenties, this era of SELF-DISCOVERY and LEARNING (read: that time in your life where you realize you have to accept your flaws and it's probably too late to change much anymore), I've started to accept the pieces of astrology that actually have proven to be true.
In my case, I've learned that I have surrounded myself with friends who are exactly that which I feared would come about in me. They like talking about themselves. They are confident. They believe they have qualities greatly superior to others. Often they don't let you get a word in edge-wise and their volume regulator too-often seems to be broken. Yes, these are all qualities I have, too. Sure, my friends think they're great, but that's why I'm friends with them, right? Because they deserve their arrogance. They know what they're great at (being awesome) and they own it.
I'll be the first to admit that I can't lift weights without a mirror. I can't do arms with sleeves on my shirt. How can I know I'm great without a visual?! I was caught in the gym looking at my rippling abs in the mirror the other night, but I did think I was the only one there so it's acceptable.
As I've come into my mid-twenties, this era of SELF-DISCOVERY and LEARNING (read: that time in your life where you realize you have to accept your flaws and it's probably too late to change much anymore), I've started to accept the pieces of astrology that actually have proven to be true.
In my case, I've learned that I have surrounded myself with friends who are exactly that which I feared would come about in me. They like talking about themselves. They are confident. They believe they have qualities greatly superior to others. Often they don't let you get a word in edge-wise and their volume regulator too-often seems to be broken. Yes, these are all qualities I have, too. Sure, my friends think they're great, but that's why I'm friends with them, right? Because they deserve their arrogance. They know what they're great at (being awesome) and they own it.
I'll be the first to admit that I can't lift weights without a mirror. I can't do arms with sleeves on my shirt. How can I know I'm great without a visual?! I was caught in the gym looking at my rippling abs in the mirror the other night, but I did think I was the only one there so it's acceptable.
So yes, we're all vain. And I will never stop believing that every song is about me or some issue related to me. Didn't they write it about us?! Isn't that the point of music?! That my friends are great enough to deserve a song?!
To be perfectly honest, though, I want to point out some traits of my people that I read in an article recently ("This Is How To Love a Leo" by Bryonie Wise).
This article points out our ego and eludes to our stubborn side, but elaborates on the complexity of a Leo. We doubt that we can be loved completely and have more feelings than we often see in others, causing us to wonder if we will always have more passion and feeling than those we come in contact with. We have an adventurous side that makes us run off into the world, seeking something, though that thing is probably adventure in its purest form and it's a feeling that we have and chase. We are loyal, in the way of a lion, but to be true and loyal to another person we must learn to be true and loyal to ourselves. This makes us strong and in doing so requires others trust us before we can love. We want everyone around us to be who they are and don't hold expectations other than just be that person that each is. It can seem demanding or pressured, but it's just a need for others to be as true as we are.
We know how to love, but we are shy in accepting love and support from others, when really we need and fear that support. We are stubborn, but kind and compassionate and we internalize all the issues and feelings in the world. We want to be held, but we also need the time to just be strong ourselves. It's a questioning of whether our compassion is a gift or a curse, but is a responsibility we hold dearly. Ultimately, while we seem to need to be the center of everything, our innate sense of feeling and loving requires a simple life. We appreciate slow. We appreciate intimate moments in the middle of nowhere that give life a meaning and profundity that we require.
We may seem demanding or as if our expectations are too high to meet, but at the end of the day we just want truth and honesty and love for us and yourself. Be strong, be who you are, and if you want to love us as a close friend or romantically you have to be ready to be fully exposed and own the person you are.
That article can be found here: http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/08/this-is-how-to-love-a-leo/ and while I find so much of it resonates with me, let this be my statement of understanding that astrology is often a lot of bollocks. I don't necessarily believe it, but this was an external justification and wording of all that I know myself to be, so I had to share.
And all the girls do dream that they'll be our partner. Naturally. We're so awesome.
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